Marianne - far far away

moved

2009-11-21T02:03:00.002Z

So I've gotten married.
I'm in a new degree.
I live in a new flat with my husband.
And life continues in a new blog...
We are continuing with our wedding blog, that has now turned into a "normal" diary blog.
See you there:

andreasmarianne.blogspot.com

quote of the day

2009-04-29T08:40:00.000+01:00

Whatever you give to a woman, she will make greater.

If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby.
If you give her a house, she'll give you a home.
If you give her groceries, she'll give you a meal.
If you give her a smile, she'll give you her heart.
She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her.

So, if you give her any crap, be ready to receive a ton of shit.

things I want to see before I die

2009-03-28T12:13:00.002Z

The Great Wall of China

The Forbidden City - China

Serengeti National Park - Kenya

Christ the Redeemer - Rio de Janiero

Inca city - Machu Pichu - Peru

Taj Mahal - India

Victoria Falls- Zimbabwe

Grand Canyon - USA

Angkor Wat - Cambodia

Chichen Itza - Mexico

Perhaps: Ngorongoro, Amazon Rainforest, Dubai

Already seen:
Luxor Temple - Egypt

Stone Henge - England

Statue of Liberty - New York

Eiffel Tower - Paris

Niagara Falls - US

The Little Mermaid - Copenhagen (hehe)

Colosseum - Rome

Jerusalem - Israel

Northern Lights

Dolphins - Eilat, Whales - Canada

wishlist

2009-03-24T12:19:00.007Z

Now it's less than a month to my 24 birthday. (I am still surprised at my own age. Time goes too fast)

And so here is my wishlist:

An iPod Nano 16GB, and A Nike+ iPod Spot Kit

Yankee Candles - scented candle in glass jar

DKNY Be Delicious Fresh Blossom

Gucci Eau de Parfume II

my playlist

2009-03-22T13:09:00.003Z

songs playing on my playlist these days.

Ida Corr vs Fredde Le Grand - Let Me Think About It
Flo Rida - Right Round
Guru Josh - Infinity 2008
Franz Ferdinand - No You Girls You Never Know
Mason vs Princess Superstar - Perfect Exceeder
The Fratellies - Chelsea Dagger
Maskinen - Alla som Inte Dansar

What's on yours?

spring indoors

2009-03-17T01:20:00.005Z

This weekend we went out in the sun - yes spring is here for real - and plucked some flowers (daffodils) and cherry branches. I put them in vases inside, and they are already beginning to blossom. It makes such a difference in a room when you bring spring inside.

I really hope it won't snow in April like it did two years ago. I want spring to stay and summer to come, and school to be over! yay. Or at least this round. I am really looking forward to starting something new at Reading Uni.

turtle love

2009-03-17T01:20:00.001Z

some wedding stuff

2009-03-16T19:34:00.003Z

Our website for the wedding is almost finalised now (I hope) and the invitations are being made right now and should be out within a week. It's so exciting.

Thank you to Jonathan for taking and making time to do the website, and thank you to our families for putting together the invitations.

You can go have a look if you want on: www.andreasmarianne.com

Now I am off to IKEA... yes again, I know. This time I want to get things for the hall way, and Andreas wants to buy that big bed :)
Prakash, the guy that moved into Andreas' old flat is coming with us he needs EVERYTHING for his new apartment. So this will be exciting, but probably we will be back around midnight as usual, so no studying tonight... great excuse huh? :)

painting at Pearson's

2009-03-12T19:22:00.001Z

Me and Andreas said yes to do some DIY interior decorating at Mike and Helen's house in Wokingham. It took a lot longer than we thought it would. Maybe because we're not professionals and had to be extra careful because of the wall to wall dark blue carpet on the floor that we (and probably not them either) did not want white paint on.

We worked there every evening from about 7 to 11pm from SUnday to Wednesday, and I worked there every afternoon from 2-5pm mon, tues, wed. So a break well spent I guess, considering that I usually just watch tons of movies and sleep a lot anyway. And of course I didn't get any of the school work done that I had told myself I would do.
pics:

dyed my hair

2009-03-09T19:29:00.000Z

Because my hair is so affected by light and salt water especially you can see the seasons in my hair. Blonde dark blonde dark, and now my roots had become very dark compared to the ends and so I decided to colour it all so that it would have somewhat the same tone.

Bought a cheap "Nice n'easy" colouring kit at Tesco's and did it on Sabbath morning by myself. (made a stain on the carpet by the zink... oops! don't tell anyone)

After:

the new apartment

2009-03-02T00:18:00.004Z

Okay, so now I've uploaded tons of pictures to facebook from the apartment. Go have a look. What a transformation.
I remember first time I went in there, when Helen was still living there. Wall to wall carpets EVERYWHERE. Dark blue in the kitchen and burgundy red AND grey in the bedroom (yes two different colours in the same room) and then of course the PINK in the bathroom.

First thing we did was rip out all the carpets, and the college agreed for us to get laminate flooring. So now we have oak laminate floor in bedroom, lounge, and hallway. Kitchen and bedroom is vinyl.

Tuesday evening we went to IKEA and got tons of stuff. Most of today we've spent putting together the furniture we got and putting up curtains and curtain rods. And now I think we're getting close to having a nice looking apartment. I still need a few things for the hall way, and really want a new shower curtain, but sitll haven't found a nice looking one. But I guess you can't find everything at once, and I have the rest of my life to be collecting cute things I love =) It took all day to get it all done. We finished around 11pm. And my feet hurts so bad now. But I feel like it made a huge difference. So now that the appartment is almost in place I can start focusing on wedding planning again.

In the album on facebook there is both before and after pictures. So go have a look

flapjacks

2009-02-27T13:52:00.004Z

At Bracknell College they have these absolutely delicious flapjacks in the cantine. It is the tastiest thing they offer on campus I'm sure. It has become tradition now for me to buy one piece during the coffee break. But yesterday I got cravings for more, and so I made my own flapjacks for the first time in my life.

After thinking for a while and looking online for something that might end up tasting similar to what they have in the college cantine, this is my recipe that turned out really good.

Ingredients:

150g butter
1dl golden sirup
1dl demerara sugar
½dl brown sugar
1 teaspoon vanilla sugar
a pinch of salt
(some marshmallows if you like)
5dl rolled oat

Put everything except for the oats in a pot on low heat, when it has all melted and become a creamy substance take the pot of the heat and pour in the rolled oats. Stir.
Put onto a baking tray, press out to about 1-2cm thick. Put in the oven for 15-20 min. For a crunchy flap jack heat the oven to 200*C if you prefer a more chewey version (like I do) 150*C is perfect.

After 15-20 min take out and let it cool. Cut up into square pieces. I like them the best when they are still lukewarm.

You can vary it by adding raisins or nuts, or make a topping by melting some milk chocolate and spread over it.

Good luck!

so much for fasting

2009-02-25T15:32:00.004Z

I want a semla. Goodbye wedding dress shape and hello wonderfully creamy little thing:

On Friday I think I will make some of these yummy things. I haven't had a semla in 3 years now. How awful! (hehe)

It is actually just a regular white flour bun with come cardemum filled with almond paste and whipped cream. I can't wait!

ikea

2009-02-25T14:47:00.007Z

So we went to IKEA yesterday. Left around 7pm from Newbold to avoid traffic, and got there around 8. The Wembley Ikea is open until midnight every day, so we had some time. We bought stuff for £440 in total. CRAZINESS!

We bought a coffee table a side table, curtains and rods for the lounge, bedroom and kitchen, rugs for bedroom and lounge. Some bathroom accesories and some pots and plants. A mirror for the bedroom. A new frying pan and some kitchen utensils. I love shopping at IKEA and we were good this time and actually didn't buy any sweets. (For some reason we both keep thinking that it is good for us hehe. Has to change now. Especially for me who am trying to fit into a wedding dress which means - weight loss now por favor!).

Next time we go we need to buy a bed, some hallway furniture, and a curtain rod to have udnerneath the work bench in the kitchen.

We are thinking about buying this LILLESAND bed frame because Andreas can stick his feet out through the bars at the bottom. Poor tall guy =)

swedish class cancelled

2009-02-23T23:25:00.002Z

And so it happened... I feared it would, and it did. Not enough students. Well at the end of the semester only 3 of them showed up regularly. There were only 5 students. we were hoping to get one more, but now they've closed us down. The department manager asked me if I was willing to teach a class again in the autumn, and I've said yes to that. But we will see if I'll get enough students next time around.

Some of them want personal tutoring, and some of them wants us to continue to meet somewhere else. So perhaps I will be able to get some money in on teaching anyways. I am a bit scared of personal tutoring though, it's a totally different dynamic and relationship with the student. Plus I have no idea what to charge.

Other than that, the PTLLS course really sucks. I usually wouldn't describe a degree in education that way, but this is really beyond what I thought it would be. So far I don't feel I have learnt anything. It is interesting that they are not so keen on teaching me techniques that would be useuful to my students, as they are on feeding me how to do the paper work and know the health and safety rules of the college. I can't help but feeling it's a waste of time, and that it won't make me a better teacher in any way. Which was what I had been hoping for. Oh well, I have 3 assignements for this Thursday. Hopefully I will get them done.

We have moved all of Andreas things into the new apartment now. Hopefully we will go to IKEA tomorrow. I LOVE IKEA! It's the best place when you feel a little homesick, and you can get Marabou chocolate and Ahlgrens bilar. Yummy! Not that candy is the only thing I miss about Sweden, but it sure is one of the top rankers on the list.

I will put up pictures of the new apartment as soon as I've taken some =)

new running shoes

2009-02-20T01:38:00.003Z

It's now or never.

Although I've been telling myself to get off my butt and back to work(ing out) I just never got to it. But now I've done something that should get me started, if nothing else. I've bought great, absolutely amazing, shoes:

They're from Nike, and they are sooo comfortable. It fells like walking on cushions all the time. Now I just need to go to bed earlier at night, so that I actually get up in the morning and can run around the block, like I used to, what is it, 2 years almost nowsince that was a rutine.

Not good. Now I have to get better. NOW!

Please check with me if I have been exercising whenever you see me. That should give me a bad conscious if nothing else.

fun, sexy, safe?

2009-02-18T13:43:00.000Z

i want a kitten

2009-02-18T11:55:00.005Z

One of Andreas' co-worker's - Gregor - cat has gotten kittens. 4 of them! They are absolutely gorgeous, you can't let your eyes off them. We went over to visit them on Monday evening. They were sleeping and then they were awake and running around and then they suddenly fell asleep in your knee again. I just wanted to bring one with me home. They were just the cutest little things, so soft and so much fun. They are about 6 weeks now.

Aparently it is really difficult to get a hold of kittens in the UK, so they told us that we should take one now (they'll sterilize teir cat as soon as they've given away the kittens). If only me and Andreas lived together already I would have said yes without blinking, but right now it would be really hard since ANdreas works from 8-5 and I don't live in the apartment yet.

2 dresses in 1 day

2009-02-15T23:15:00.003Z

Yesterday I went a little crazy. I had to get two dresses in about 20 min. Yesterday was the Valentine's Banquet at the college, and today Natacha and Travis wedding. I went in to Bracknell with not so high expectations. I figured, if nothing else I will try to reinvent something I already have.

I found 2 dresses for 65 pounds! And they were gorgeous! I was so incredibly happy when I first left Topshop with this astonishing piece of fabricÖ

and I couldn't believe my eyes when I found a dress in a size I could fit for 15 pounds (down from 60!!) Definitely best shopping of my life!

(picture coming soon)

The Valentine's banquet yesterday was so much fun. Although I went alone, I had a lot of fun thanks to all my lovely friends. And Natacha and Trav's wedding was absolutely gorgeous. I am so full now from all the Greek food we were served. Thank you so much guys!

2009-02-15T23:12:00.001Z

Kids...
I like babies. Until they're about two years old. Then they start being annoying... but from time to time, I meet these amazing little people. Then I realise how fascinating it must be to have such a little person and see them develop. I am not convinced yet, but I guess I am starting to change my mind about these things :)

saving for later

2009-02-06T02:33:00.002Z

Since August I've been trying to save money. I haven't been shopping at all. Not going to Bracknell to sit in the coffeeshop, not eating out etc... I need money for a wedding dress! And I have almost made my mind up. Again and again I am amazed by Enzoani's dresses, and it seems that I will end up in one of them, if I manage to save enough money (donations are welcommed ;) )

But! I still find these things I would just love to buy, I guess after the wedding... a year or so after, when our budget will have recovered, I am going to buy this:

Exotic fruits and spicy delicious tea

No more boring English Earl Grey...

Perfume
Philosophy - Amazing Grace

time for the hairdresser?

2009-02-02T11:09:00.004Z

I haven't been at the hairdresser since May 2005. Since then I have been cutting my hair myself, and gotten a little help with the parts I can't reach from sisters and room mates. The reason is that I've always felt that it's so expensive. They spend an hour on you and you have to pay £45. Craziness! But now I am feeling like it's about time to have another go. I've been letting it grow for some time now, trying to get it long again (it hasn't been this long since I was in 6th grade), and my hair grows really slow. So here are some pictures of hairstyles I would like to have...

I'm not sure if I want to dye it, maybe some highlights. I will book an appointment in March, until then help me find a good style. :)

it's snowing

2009-02-02T10:10:00.005Z

I prefer snow with a blue sky and sunshine. But I guess that here in England that is a bit much to ask for. But it is exciting. And nature is beautiful covered in white.
Of course the English can't handle it at all and most schools and roads have been closed.

Maybe Newbold is closed too, although I can't imagine that since most of the students and staff live either on campus or just around the corner. Then again, I don't have any classes today anyway so it doesn't really matter to me :)

The view from Andreas' apartment:

bowling

2009-01-29T00:04:00.002Z

Tonight there was a student AND staff bowling event in Bracknell. Over 60 people from Newbold went in and had tons of fun. I got over the 100 score which is more than I usually get. It was so much fun, except for the fact you could't hear yourself because of the noisy Americans. If nothing else they made me feel very old... haha.

I should go bowling more often, it is more social than going to watch a movie, and it is really fun.. a bit expensive but if you do it at the 'right time' you get a pretty good price.

p.s. I'm a bit fascinated by this song right now:

it is official

2009-01-15T14:30:00.002Z

Maybe you've heard it already, but I thought I would announce it here: Andreas and I will be staying at Newbold after getting married.

It is strange, but a lot has happened, since that first year when Andreas biggest wish was to go back to Sweden, hated the old rich lady he worked for, who basically treated him like crap, and lived in a tiny room with a family he never met before moving, whose kids woke him up at 7am on Sunday mornings. Now he loves his job, which I think is absolutely amazing. Personally, I can't think of anything as important in order to maintain a happy and consent daily living, than wanting and looking forward to go to work. He has found that!

On top of that, we have now been offered a bigger apartment from Newbold, that we right now have started to renovate. All walls will be repainted, new flooring, lamps, sockets etc. And we get to have a say in all of this. So it will really feel like it will be ours.

And so it would only be silly, to go back to Sweden, although we both love the country very much, and miss all our friends there, when we have so many things already sorted if we stay here. The only thing that is a bit worrying for me is what I ought to do with MY future. But at least if we stay, we have an apartment, Andreas has a job, and then we just need to find something that I can spend my time on.
If we were to go back to Sweden we would have to find an apartment, and 2 jobs. So this really will be easier.

I am still not sure whether I should continue with my studies after graduating from Newbold. Perhaps doing a masters in Management at Reading University, or if I should start working as soon as I am done.

We will see... There's still a lot to figure out.

naturally 7

2009-01-07T23:03:00.002Z

This is impressive! Voice control!
Amazing guys Naturally 7's new album 'Wall of Sound' is out now. This isn't just acappella music, this is beat boxing as well.

2008-12-29T23:52:00.002Z

I'm a little anoyed with the "blog world".

Back to watching Grey's Anatomy.

quote of the day

2008-12-26T02:41:00.001Z

Education is a progressive discovery of our own ignorance

influenza

2008-12-19T11:05:00.002Z

Last Friday Andreas caught the flu, and I tried to help him and take care of him over the weekend, and so Sunday evening I started feeling a sore throat. And it has just been awful every since. A terrible sore throat that is scratchy, makes it hard to swallow, impossible to breathe.
This morning Andreas left, and if I wasn't with my parents I would be depressed, because I feel like a little child that needs a nursing caretaker. I am so happy that my parents (although they aren't feeling on top either, dad has the fever) are taking care of me. I feel like a little child again every now and then, and it is sooo lovely.

But it is kinda sad. I had so many plans for this week. And now the time is gone,and I've done nothing... My planswereto: bake, buy Christmas gifts, meet my friends, practicefor the concert tomorrow (that I wont be able to participate in now, because I've lost my voice) EAT - Christmas candy and CHristmas food, but I can't have any sugar because then I'll never get better...grrr it is so boring being sick for so long.

Although I'm happy and really thankful to my parents for being here and for them taking care of me, I'm a little bit sad that Andreas has left now. I always miss him when he isn't with me.

But I'll see him for New Years. We'll be celebrating New Years in Linköping.
Anyone else who's sick?

newbold commercial

2008-12-11T20:35:00.003Z

Last semester I was asked to take part in making a video about Newbold. I was interviewed in front of a camera. I found a clip on youtube with it today, didn't know it was out there. If you want to have a look...

my decorating style

2008-12-10T22:43:00.002Z

Did a test on mydeco's website and got the following results:

HOME-COMING QUEEN

Nothing - budgets included - stops you from putting your all into creating a dream home. Your look is quintessentially feminine: cool, pretty colours; layered patterns and textures; and flawless attention to every detail.
Living Room

You love connecting with nature and the world outside. The rustic living room is cousin to the country cottage, but it's altogether earthier and more rugged, almost troglodyte. There's something elemental about this look, which embodies the romantic spirit of a pilgrim and celebrates the independence of the hermit. That said, it can be warm and welcoming -- a respite or sanctuary from the world outside. It's about the homespun and the homely, about authenticity and log-cabin cosiness. Look to vernacular arts and crafts to accessorise the room, from Harris Tweed throws to old metal or enamel signs. Neutral wall colours provide a calm, easy background, while linen textiles and soft furnishings never go out of style. There are few things more luxurious than a sneaky afternoon nap, dozing off in your favourite spot in the living room.
Bedroom

Your bedroom benefits from a lovely feminine touch. Sleep is fundamentally important to our well being. In busy towns and cities, noise can often hamper a good night's sleep. Soft furnishings really do absorb sound, and touch is such an important sense in the bedroom, from crisp, linen sheets to wool or even sheepskin underfoot. You like to surround yourself with pretty frills and flounces in your bedroom, using the timeless approach of layering white on white to serene effect.
Dining Room

You're a home-lover, bringing a light, feminine touch to mealtimes. At home, your dining room may be quite formal at the same time as being light and airy, with pretty finishing touches. You're a home-maker par excellence, and mealtimes are the perfect occasion for bringing everyone together. If you like patterns ,especially floral ones, be careful about overdoing it: there's a thin line between feminine charms and the gilded lily. When it comes to entertaining, you like quite simple (some might say 'peasant') food with big, robust flavours.
Home Office

Bucolic beauty reigns over your home office. These days, almost all of us have a home office: a desk and a chair in one corner of the living room with adjustable task lighting and adequate filing is all it takes (and might be all the space you can afford). You can give your office space a 'country cottage' look by choosing a button-backed winged armchair and a sturdy antique desk with deep drawers for filing (or even storing your laptop).
Conclusion

Your home is pretty as a chocolate box and almost good enough to eat!

If you want to take the test it is here.

song of the day

2008-12-10T16:17:00.004Z

"I want to be rich and I want lots of money "

"I’ll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
‘Cuz everyone knows that’s how you get famous"

"Life’s about film stars and less about mothers"

"everything is cool as long as I’m getting thinner"

danish lullaby

2008-12-08T23:15:00.001Z

the day after

2008-12-07T11:00:00.005Z

I had such a lovely day yesterday. First I was worship leading in the contemporary service. Two people were getting baptized, and we sang Christmas songs, and there was just such an uplifting and lovely atmosphere. I felt so blessed.

After the service we were invited to a get together at Henrik's house for all the Danes (+ and their partners) where we had proper delicious Danish Christmas food. Soo yummy, and had such a stomach ache after eating; turkey, potatoes, gravy, ris alamond (I got the almond, won a beautiful candle).

After that we went to Andreas apartment, where he had a surprise for me; before we went to Henrik's place, he had given me a memory card for the camera, as a present. I thought that was maybe a bit off an odd thing to give someone on their 4th anniversary but then again I was so happy that he had just taken time to get something, and at least it was something useful :)
But when we came back after all the Christmas food, and I was exhausted and pulled away the covers of the bed there was another gift there for me; a digital frame.

It's so smart. You just put in your memory card, USB or plug it into the computer and then you can have a slide show or you can chose to have the same picture all the time. There was even a remote control with it. I loved it. Usually, I'm the only one who buys the gifts on our anniversary, so this year I asked him if he thought we should do that, his response was that it wasn't really necessary was it...
Well, he got me fooled, and I love surprises. He is so lovely!

4 years

2008-12-06T13:16:00.003Z

so today it's December 6, and it has been 4 years since that night, after I returned form Spain, and I got my first kiss from the boy that made my heart beat faster, and still does.

In 8 months we will be married.

Life is exciting.

I love you Andreas.

The period before we got together was very emotional and confusing, and the soundtrack during that period was Sting

Excitement, nervousness, anticipation, heartache, infatuation, confusion,

Our song Shape of My Heart

our corridor - deck the halls...

2008-12-04T11:38:00.003Z

So we were supposed to have a competition between the corridors in th guys and girls dorm here at Newbold, competing on who could decorate it the nicest.
The competition ended Sunday at noon. (But none of the "judges aka deans showed up, quite a dissapointment, when you've tried to involve all the people in your hall.)
Anyway, yesterday I was told that we had won. And I am so proud of my corridor mates. They all helped out with different things, and it was fun being creative together. We made it all from scratch (except for the guirlands and the "crystal balls" hanging form the roof.)We made snowflakes, stars, stockings, snowmen, a santa claus (with the face of one of the deans; Henrik. Now that is Christmas at Newbold for you ;) ) presents, adventcandles and so on. Quite a project.
Here are some pictures of the winning result:

quote of the day

2008-11-24T19:23:00.000Z

All that is thought should not be said,
all that is said should not be written,
all that is written should not be published,
all that is published should not be read.

- Rabbi Menachem Mendel Morgenstern

disney wives

2008-11-21T19:24:00.003Z

wishlist

2008-11-19T16:10:00.018Z

Nikon D80

Webcam + headset

Tivoli Audio - Model One (Classic Walnut)

Clarins -Beauty Flash Balm

Flip

Gym Bag

Bedlinnen x2 ... I am getting married you know :)(brights, white, blue, beige)

Clothes/Shopping

ikea and christmas preparations

2008-11-19T08:57:00.002Z

Last week was exhausting, but it wasn't until the adrenalin had left my body and I actually had time to rest, that I realised just how draining it had been.
Last week I had; 2 essays, 2 presentations and one test in 2 days! I am still not sure how I made it through that, but I sure felt like superwoman by Friday morning.

So Monday, we went to Ikea to get some things for my room and Andreas apartment. Most of all we went to get a new frame (the second one that Danielle broke) so that we could put them back on the wall. But of course, just this Monday, it was out of stock. But we spent money anyway :) Ikea makes you do that.

Gingerbread, christmas candy, scented candles, a big warm cosy throw, pollows, light chains for my window, an alarm clock, and so on.
Yesterday was then the first time this year, that I allowed myself to listen to Christmas music. I am always very strict about not starting too early, because I get sick of hearing the same songs over and over again.

But it was just amazing to sit in my room and fold little Christmas stars from goldribbons, and have lit candles smelling of cinnamon and vanilla (I knwo you're not allowed to have candles in your room, so I'm hoping none of the deans see this).
And it really made my week.

quote of the day

2008-11-11T11:56:00.001Z

the mistake speculators often make
is to assume that the empirical world
is under some obligation to conform
to their logical reconstructions

Kaplan and Manners

the 6th

2008-11-06T13:55:00.004Z

The 6th every month, we (me and A) try to do something special, because it was on the 6th we got together 47 months ago now.
Next month we will have been together for 4 years, and on January 1 we have been engaged for 1 year. So many things to celebrate, so many wonderful memories.
And in 9 months it will be our wedding day. How wild is that?

So because it's the 6th, a song to reminisce over "old days" to:

Shania Twain - Forever and For Always

happy sabbath

2008-11-01T10:16:00.003Z

Today is a gray day. The ground is wet. The leafs have lost their amazing brilliant colours and are sticky and flat on the grass.
Nevertheless, it is Sabbath.
It is God's gift to me. It's a day for me and a day for him.
God's presence is warmth, uplifting, is security, is love.
And all these things combined gives a sense of an amazing freedom.

Hillsong United - In Your Freedom

"I offer devotion"

- - * - -

This next song is for Heidi, who's all alone in Spain. You are so brave.
I miss you so much.
We sang this song at Hillsongs in London when you were here visiting us in January.

Hillsong London - You are Here

"The same power that conquered the grave, lives in me
Your love that rescued the earth, lives in me"

He lives in you!
♥ big sis

moving

2008-10-31T21:33:00.002Z

This voice.
There is something about the Scandinavian language and voice quality that moves the very core of me.
In addition it's a beautiful song, from the musical by the ABBA guys: Kristina från Duvemåla.

awareness test

2008-10-31T08:10:00.002Z

What are you focusing on in life, that could make you miss out on something greater?
Awareness... it is difficult. We all have our personal perspectives blocking the view.

From auntie in Holland.

must see

2008-10-21T00:09:00.002+01:00

I love/hate Ricky Gervais, there is something about him and his humor that makes me sick, and at the same time hysterical... hysterically funny? I still can't decide. If you have ever seen his show The Office (not the American version) you know what I am talking about.
I want to see this movie. Maybe it can help me decide what my feelings are.
Even if I wouldn't like it, the man is a genius. Painful humor still reveals alot about people. He tests your limits, challenges social boundaries, not in a gross way, but those unwritten social laws.
If any of you have seen it. Tell me what you think.

song of the day

2008-10-18T22:06:00.001+01:00

Robyn - With Every Heartbeat

sentimental value

2008-10-16T13:43:00.001+01:00

Niklas singing andplaying happy birthday to Veronica, in our house, summer 2006.
I miss those days.

black history week

2008-10-14T16:20:00.007+01:00

I am posting this,very aware that I might step on some feet, and cause some comments such as "racist", but I'd rather stir up some emotion and ask some sensitive questions than pretend. Maybe someone might even enlighten me, for which I would be very grateful. So here we go...

To be honest, I have a serious problem with the whole concept of having a Black History Week, since it, in my humble opinion, only creates deeper gaps and separation, rather than a sense of unity and acceptance. It is almost as if it is a week for, not uplifting famous black historical figures or point out great achievements of such, but rather a week where it is ok for blacks to scold whites. Where it is ok for blacks to blame whites for any misfortune they may have ever encountered. Not a week just for questioning the patriarchal white way, but rather a week ofconfirming it, and pointing out that we will always be different and that white poeple apparently always will be racists. All this, in my opinion is rather unconstructive.

I see how some black people might have the need to create an identity and therefore need to feel some sort of grouping together, in order to define what it means to be black-Caribbean living in England. But when grouping together you are at the same time excluding the outsider, it is inevitable and unfortunate.

So as it is now, at least here at Newbold, I personally cannot see this week having a constructive influence. What is the purpose of this week lead by teachers and staff. If it is to create unity and acceptance, I would argue that the opposite is happening.

However, today in Fine Arts Sandra Rigby-Barrett showed us a video of something that for once gave me some hope about the Black History Week at Newbold.
It was a video based on a theory by a Willie Ruff, a black music expert at Yale University, who is suggesting that Gospel Music has some of its roots in Gaelic church singing. (The video was called "The Gospel Truth?")

"Willie Ruff believes that "precenting the line" - the traditional unaccompanied singing of psalms in Gaelic in the Presbyterian churches in the Hebrides - is the ancestor of "lining out", still practised in black churches in the South and, therefore, that Gaelic psalm (salm) singing lies at the root of all black American music." Taken from here

Now this might sound appalling to some. How can you take away the very heart of black people's achievement in art; gospel music and everything that has come out of it?
I would argue the opposite. It is not taking away the very heart. It is merely pointing out, that today; we are all a blend of something. I would claim that there is no such thing as a purely black or purely white person in the modern world.
We all have struggles when it comes to who we are and finding a place were we can feel we belong in the obviously fragmented societies and the postmodern mindset of at least the Western part of the world.
So why shouldn't one of the influences in black music come from a white Scottish tradition? Why is that a terrible statement to make? Is it really racist to claim that?

Read more here and here

I would personally rather hear about how different cultures contributions might have lead into somewhat of a movement, than have a whole week of "propaganda" of a fact that we all hopefully know already, that black people contributed to development and progress.

Yes, education and honestly everything in our society has been dominated by white male opinion and theory. And maybe Black History Week is an attempt to put everything "on its head" so to say; to have a new and different perspective become the norm in our mini-societ; Newbold College(for a week at least). I can see how this can be healthy; challenging our set norms and expectations of and on society. But at the same time I wonder if challenging is enough for change? Should we then not have Jewish History Week? Or why not Women's History Week? Or to be absolutely crazy Muslim History Week? (Please note the irony)

Maybe I'm being naive when I claim that unity and integration sounds more appealing than splitting up and separating into groups? Maybe integration doesn't exist in reality, maybe it is merely one culture giving up and giving space for another? Or is it possible that two cultures could become a third?

I have no answers, only questions.

song of the day

2008-10-14T16:17:00.001+01:00

i love autumn

2008-10-13T15:52:00.004+01:00

There is something magical about autumn days. Sunshine reflecting in the magnificent colours of the trees, the playfulness of a breeze, that sometimes grows into a powerful wind. The weather has a character, a personality so to say.
You have to dress to fit it.

I feel better in my own skin for some reason. I enjoy cozying up with hot chocoalte or tea, under a blanket. The embrace of a warm appartment, how it softens your muscles after being tense outside in the cold.

This is an amazing time of the year. If the year and it's seasons were a lifetime, the autumn is the season of the 30's. Enough self awareness and self acceptance, a "this is who I am" attitude.

Here are some pictures I took on an afternoon walk a few weeks ago.

I like it.

nostalgia?

2008-10-12T12:04:00.002+01:00

For some reason I get nostalgic when listening to this ridiculous medley: Polkarama by Weid Al Yankovic

Songs:
"Chicken Dance" by Werner Thomas
"Let's Get It Started" by Black Eyed Peas
"Take Me Out" by Franz Ferdinand
"Beverly Hills" by Weezer
"The Nina Bobina Polka" by "Weird Al" Yankovic
"Speed of Sound" by Coldplay
"Float On" by Modest Mouse
"Feel Good Inc." by Gorillaz & De La Soul
"Don't Cha" by Pussycat Dolls & Busta Rhymes
"Somebody Told Me" by The Killers
"Slither" by Velvet Revolver
"Candy Shop" by 50 Cent & Olivia
"Drop It Like It's Hot" by Snoop Dogg & Pharrell
"Pon de Replay" by Rihanna
"Gold Digger" by Kanye West & Jamie Foxx
"W.A.Y. Moby Polka by "Weird Al" Yankovic

favourite actors

2008-10-11T12:56:00.002+01:00

There are some actors that make an entire movie.
Actors that makes you want to watch a movie just because their name is on the poster.
Actors who you know will deliver over your expectations, who brings an element of surprise in a good way.
Here are my favourite actors, in no specific order.

Matt Damon
Movies you can not miss:
Talented Mr Ripley, Good Will Hunting, The Bourne Trilogy

This guy has charisma and the best humor, and oh boy he looks good too.

Jack Nicholson
Have to see:
As Good As It Gets, One Flew over the Cuckoo's Nest

Heath Ledger
Brokeback Mountain, The Dark Knight

Who are your favourite actors?

what if?

2008-09-28T17:05:00.004+01:00

I was looking for trailers for "The Bucketlist" (which I recommend if you haven't seen it, Jack Nicholson is marvelous!), and came across this video. It is not so much the pictures as the words. The song is What if? by Nichole Nordeman.

Just a thought for you.

What if you’re right?
And he was just another nice guy
What if you’re right?
What if it’s true?
They say the cross will only make a fool of you
And what if it’s true?

But what if you’re wrong?
What if there’s more?
What if there’s hope you never dreamed of hoping for?
What if you jump?
And just close your eyes?
What if the arms that catch you, catch you by surprise?
What if He’s more than enough?
What if it’s love?

quotes of the day

2008-09-25T15:50:00.002+01:00

"Real tragedy is not thwarted ambition,
but the failure to develop ambition"

"Failure is so unpleasant that we would rather not try,
because by refusing to make the attempt,
we avoid confronting the experience of failure."

Terri Apter

teaching career, ready set go

2008-09-24T14:49:00.004+01:00

Last night I had my very first "Communicate in Swedish" lesson. I was terribly nervous before, and pretty stressed out about whether I had prepared enough or maybe too much for the two hours that I was to spend with my 8 students.
Only 6 of them showed up, but it was a really good group. Mainly 25-30 years old. WHich is lucky, since apparently in Britain there was no requirement for a 2nd language for a while, so everyone 30+ doesn't know anything about, pronouns, verbs, adverbs etc...

I'm really excited about this course, although it is rather stressful, since I already have my job in the cafeteria (4 hours/day all week). But I think I'm going to give some of my shifts away to Angie.

(She lives in my corridor, and she's a blast)

It is weird to teach your own language. And it's really hard to decide what to start with. Find out what would be a good base.
Unfortunately, there are hardly any good textbooks for Swedish for beginners, most of them are rather old, looking more like the 70's. So I am going to have to do ALOT of work on my own. I've been copying from French and English books that I've found in the library and used them as inspiration and sometimes just translated directly so that I have something more up to date to give to my students.

I just got out of a cold, but I haven't been sleeping properly (because the 'cold relieg' pills apparently had caffeine in them, GREAT!) So I'm going to take a nap now.

Tonight the brotherhood has arranged for a costume party, or Fancy dres party as it apparently is called in England. I have class until 9 so I'm going to be late, and don't have time to dress up, but I gave Johanna P the amazing idea to be a mirror. She can use an old picture frame and imitate people, annoying AND creative. hehe

BTW: Check facebook for pictures from the Cornwall trip. This was my very first time. It's terrible that I've missed 3 of them. But apparently it was raining the past years.
We had amazing weather, and the group this year of students are just great. They're just alot of fun! SO It was a great trip (Except for my cold + soar throat).

bangs/fringe?

2008-09-17T00:02:00.003+01:00

I cut my hair today. Not all of it, just the front part of it. I am confused. I guess it's the joy of being part of the international community that Newbold is famous for being. I don't know what it is called. Fringe? Bangs? But I'm sure you know what I mean.

It came to happen as it normally does when I cut my hair; impulsivity, impatience, and boredom. It went alright, as it normally does. Since I don't have straight hair small mistakes are hardly noticeable.

I realised that it has been more than 3½ year since my last visit with a hairdresser. Not that I haven't cut my hair. I've had excellent hairdressers such as; mum, Anita, Taylor, and even Andreas. And it hasn't changed much, except from growing longer. I want to get really long hair again. Like when I was a kid. I had "angle hair" according to the old lady on the third bench from the front on the right. Then I braided it went to a hairdresser for the first time, and came home with my braid in a box and a page. It's still in a box somewhere, unless someone found it and threw it away. My point is, I want long hair again. I’m assuming that it will be helpful on the wedding day as well… Bangs/fringe or no bangs/fringe.

before

during

after

wedding site

2008-09-14T22:39:00.004+01:00

Well now we're about 99% sure about the date for our wedding: 2 August 2009.
If you want to follow some of the planning and get information about the wedding you can check our wedding website andreasmarianne.blogspot.com

See you there :)

quote of the day

2008-09-14T14:11:00.001+01:00

"The knowledge of man's course of life, from the remote past to the present,will not only help us to forecast the future, but may guide us in our duty of leaving the world better than we found it."

E. B. Tylor

over and over and over and over

2008-09-13T11:25:00.000+01:00

How to Live a Longer Life

2008-09-04T08:51:00.002+01:00

http://www.nationalgeographic.dk/Shared/bildbank/flash/2005_13/multimedia/nov_05.swf

A slideshow from National Geographic based on a documentary they did on lifestyle and how it affects the length of your life.

Interesting how the one thing that seems to affect the decrease of the lifespan of people, who previously were the longest living, seems to be Americanfood chains;).

quote of the day

2008-09-03T20:31:00.000+01:00

"You can make more friends in two months by becoming
interested in other people
than you can in two years by trying to get other people
interested in you."

- Dale Carnegie

wedding songs

2008-08-08T19:53:00.002+01:00

So it had to come sooner or later...
Wedding planning is beginning to take over my spare time and before I fall asleep I see flower arrangements, color schemes, and wedding gowns.
So it's oly natural that something that is so frequently in my mind will begin to take up some space here on my blog as well.

Lately I've been looking for songs to sing at the ceremony and at the party afterwards. Songs that aren't too cheesy, although they're hard to find, but still sweet. Hopefully a song that haven't been used at weddings too many times already.
So far I've found a couple, and here are my candidates:

My Favourite Adventure - K's Choice

There you are
Your beauty consoles me
I've gone far
And I almost didn't find you
And I almost lived without you
There is nothing in this world
I'd rather do
Than live with you

Here we go,
Our favorite adventure
You should know
I was never more complete
And I never thought I'd see
The meaning of my life
Wrapped in you
Next to me

If you ever fear
Someday we might lose this
Come back here
To this moment that will last
And time can go so fast
When everything's exactly
Where it's at
Its very best

Ett liv För mig - Anders Edenroth

Kan jag få skänka dig en ton och samtidigt dela den med dig?
En önskan jag har och jag känner ditt svar,
vi behöver inga ord.

Kan jag få skänka dig min tid och vill du sen dela den med mig?
i säkert förvar nu mitt hjärta du har,
och varje stund jag är med dig
så vet jag att min dröm har blivit sann.

Ett liv för mig är ett liv med dig.
Doften av ditt hår,
varje liten tår
gör mig mera säker på
att ett liv för mig är ett liv med dig.
Jag kommer alltid, alltid att älska dig.

Kan jag få skänka dig en ros, en vacker och annorlunda ros?
Den finns bara i vår blomfantasi,
men varje morgon slår den ut.

Kan jag få skänka dig en ton som alltid ska spela inom dig.
Försiktig men fri klingar vår melodi
och när den stilla flyter på, då vet vi att vår dröm har blivit sann.

Ett liv för mig är ett liv med dig.
Doften av ditt hår,
varje liten tår
gör mig mera säker på
att ett liv för mig är ett liv med dig.
Jag kommer alltid, alltid att älska dig.

quote of the day

2008-08-07T19:32:00.003+01:00

beautiful women are invisible
we are so dazzled by the outside
that we never make it inside

from the movie Elegy feat Penélope Cruz

for the bible tells me so

2008-07-22T18:38:00.003+01:00

YOU SAY... vs. GOD SAYS...

it´s impossible
all things are possible (Luke 18:27)
i´m too tired
I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)
nobody really loves me
I love you (John 3:16 & 3:34)
i can´t go on
my grace is sufficiant (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)
i can´t figure things out
I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6)
i can´t do it
you can do all things (Philippians 4:13)
i´m not able
I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)
it´s not worth it
it will be worth it (Roman 8:28)
i can´t forgive myself
I forgive you (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)
i can´t manage
I will supply all your needs (Philipians 4:19)
i´m afraid
I have not given you a spirit of fear (II Timothy 1:7)
i´m always worried & frustrated
cast all your cares on me (I Peter 5:7)
i don´t have enough faith
I´ve given everyone a measure of faith (Romans 12:31)
i´m not smart enough
I give you wisdom (I Corinthians 1:30)
i feel all alone
I will never leave you or forsake you (Hebrews 13:5)

a wedding

2008-07-14T22:29:00.009+01:00

When you are going to a wedding there's a lot of etiquette rules and common sense to remember. Since the hapyp couple didn't announce any dress code in their invitations (and I personally think all of these "wedding rules" are a bit ridiculous) you don't really know what to wear. But you want to look nice. I prefer not knowing though, to the black tie or evening dress style parties where you end up bying a dress you'll probably neverwear again.
But as I said there are certain wedding faux pas'es:
You are not supposed to wear all white (only the bride) you are not supposed to wear all black (only for funerals) and you are not supposed to wear all red. You probably didn't know about this last one, or at least I didn't, but apparently if you're wearing red it means you're the grooms mistress/lover. Haha I didn't know about that, but maybe that's just in Sweden. (Found this info on a Swedish website)

Here's what I wore for their wonderful day. Dress from Warehouse
...argh I should have worn red.

The wedding and the reception was just amazing. Taylor was so genuinely beautiful and Filip was handsome in his suit with all his merry men.
I had a great evening with good food, great people (feel I have to mention Taylor's parents, wow, nicer people will be hard to find), dancing, and reunion of some old Newbold folks.

Taylor was my roommate this last year. We lived in room 23 in Schuil house and had a great time, or at least that is my personal opinion. ;) She is such an easygoing person with so much care and compassion for other people, a trait I find desirable and admirable. I am so happy for her now, but a the same time, the selfish part of me is a bit jealous on Filip, for a better roommate or not to mention lifepartner, is hard to find. I'll miss you, you little goof :)

Thank you soo much to the hosts and to the couple for everything.
A few pictures...

the consistency

2008-07-13T22:24:00.002+01:00

I guess the reason I haven't been writing anything here for a very long time (except for this one about personality test) is that I've just gotten anoyed with the whole hype of blogging. This idea that someone else probably will be very intersted in my personal thoughts and ideas is just absurd to me. Still it seems like it leads to succes after succes. Fashion politics music.. everyone who is anyone has to have a blog... apparently. Unfortunately there are alot of blogs out there which are just a waste of people's times, but then again, for some weird reason I often find myself reading other people's blogs. (Such as Alex and Katrin Sculman, hotspot, Sigrid, Elin Kling, Sofi Fahrman, Ebba von Sydow) Is it a new form of BigBrother? Or is it an easier way of "keeping in touch"?
Anyway blog or no blog..

I WILL continue with this in a sporadical manner. I can't promise anything about the frequency of updating, but it will be a mix of thouhts and ideas, pictures, diary, and sharing some of the latest amusements I've found such as videos and books.

So, now you know and you can't complain.

Personality Test

2008-07-13T22:05:00.005+01:00

So the much-talked about Myers-Briggs test came by me on facebook of all places. (Since I am hardly ever online...) Of course I've read/heard about it before, but tonight i decided that I would take the free unofficial test. Because it's the "unofficial" I'm sure the accuracy is totally off...
Honestly after taking the test I was very keen to see the results, because as I answered them I found that I wasn't really sure what my personality really was. Now I am not a big fan of "personality" types. I feel people often use their "personality" or the phrase "who I am" as an excuse for unacceptable behaviour. So someone would say; I know that might not have been the best thing to do but that's just who I am. I just couldn't help but laugh a little at a comment like that. But then maybe that tells me more about myself than about the other person.

Now I've had more experience in the old personality types (phlegmatic, choleric, melancholic, sanguine). I've stayed melanchlic my whole life but switched forth and back between being choleric and phlegmatic throughout the years.

Anyway... I thought I would share my unofficial results:

You are:
ENTJ
slightly expressed extravert (1%)
slightly expressed intuitive personality (12%)
moderately expressed thinking personality (25%)
distinctively expressed judging personality (67%)

(Interesting that I got such low percentages on everything except the judging part)

According to facebook this means that I have a need to:
achieve, accomplish and understand
and that my self image is affected by:
Being clever, original, inventive, autonomic and showing willpower

Apparently my personality type is called a Fieldmaster:
"Of all the Rationals, the most driven toward a leadership position is the Fieldmarshal (ENTJ). David Keirsey said they cannot NOT lead."

So... those of you who know me or think you know me, do you agree?

wishlist

2008-03-29T18:24:00.006Z

So you can get ready for the 20th of April ;)

Ring, Topshop

Perfume, Daisy by Marc Jacobs

iPod Nano, 8GB, red & Nike + iPod Sport Kit

Scale (click image for Boots)

Mulberry Bayswater, Oak

Samsonite, carry on bag

Leather bag, Topshop

...and more of these

apology

2008-03-29T18:23:00.001Z

I've noticed that I'm not very good at updating my blog... I apologize. I am not sure if I will get better at it. I almost forgot I had it.

Book Recommendation

2008-01-29T14:28:00.000Z

How to be a complete and utter failure in life, work and everything; 44½ steps to lasting underachievement by Steve McDermott

In a world of overly optimistic selfhelp books that are flooding the market "How to be a Complete and Utter Failure" comes with a warning - that you don't think about taking the direct opposite steps to those outlined in the guide, as this could seriously damage your chances of becoming a failure.
Now this is a book for me. Satire and irony in a selfhelp book... delicious!
Behind the humour, though, is good advice and a serious message. And whether you choose to heed the warning or not, it's an extremely entertaining read.

Buy it here!

Songs

2008-01-29T13:54:00.000Z

This Saturday I (together with THomas) am responsible for the COntemporary Service. Patrick Johnson is preaching based on 1 Pet 2:5-9 about us, God's people, being a Holy Priesthood. I am really looking forward to the service, since many students will be involved. I always found it a bit strange that a college like Newbold had so little student participation in the Sabbath Activities. I mean the students are in charge of so many activities during the week such as the Experience, College Worship, Friday Vesper and so on, but when it comes to Church on Sabbath we are always hiding in the back rows. Well that's about to change now I hope. This Saturday it will be ALL STUDENTS and Patrick.

Here are the songs we are planning to sing:
Hillsongs - Mighty to Save

Hillsong United - Hosanna

Lakewood Church - Still Standing

Lakewood Church - You Are Good

and Step by Step by Step

Engagement

2008-01-28T23:08:00.002Z

As most of you have probably heard, or should I say hopefully, at least if you're a friend and have been so for a while, me and Andreas are now engaged!

I'm just writing that again, mostly for my own sake... I am engaged

On New Years Eve, or officially the first day of the year 2008. I celebrated New Years with his family in Sweden, and slept in the guestroom dowsntairs around 2 am, after shooting off the fire works, his parents were getting ready for bed and me and his younger sister were watching television, he came to me and said he had bought me a present.
I don't know why, but the same second he said that it was as if my uncounsciousness understood what was going on because I suddenly got this adrenalin infusion and became very awake and aware.
"It's in your room" he said and nodded towards the guestroom where my bed was. I got up and giggly as I was I walked towards the room, but then I stopped and waited for him. "Go on," he said, but I was thinking that if what I thought was happening was about to happen he better be there with me! Then he said; "It's wrapped" and that was my signal... I ran into the room and couldn't really get the wrapping paper of the little box that had been lying on my pillow.
"It's not a ring" he said (very rude to kill the excitement... hehe)
...but it was!
Then he went down on one knee and said things that I hardly can remember for some odd reason, but he talked about wonderful love, rest of his life, marriage, and some other incredible things. WHat I do remember is the tingling feeling in my stomach and thinking; "It's happening! It's happening right now! Once in a lifetime"

I couldn't really wait for him to finish and kept saying "Yes, yes, yes!" and then he put the ring onmy finger.

I thought things wouldn't be different in any way. That the relationship would be the same, but it is not!

Such a great feeling of belonging, of trust, and safety... I can't imagine what it will feel like when we get married!

Now I mentioned marriage, to all you who are eager to know, it won't be until summer 2009, and probably in Sweden, Linköping (his hometown). So if you've never been to Sweden I'd recommend that you plan a trip there in 1½ year.

Thank you to all of you who have said congratulations and wished us all the best, it really warms when I am reminded of all the good friends I have all over the world.

MY RING!

from Schalins

what is love?

2008-01-16T16:28:00.000Z

a song by my new favourite artist... Sigvart Dagsland.
Music has always stirred my emotions, but here is a man who can make music with words. To actually hear these words with the music is an even greater experience but I will be gentle and give you the words to start with...

What is love?
Tekst: Mike Mc Gurk & Sigvart Dagsland / Melodi: Sigvart Dagsland

What is love, a gentle flower
so hard to tell
Showering pure
bitter sweet madness
over you

It takes control, turns night to day
it runs like a fever
Soothing and healing,
hiding - revealing
love's endless theme

And when somebody asks
you can't explain
you can't express
what it is
So let people ask
don't explain
just be content
to be in that ocean of bliss

Poets, painters sing its praises
It's all been said
But it strikes you like lightning,
bewitching and frightening
love's endless theme

But love can fail you, do you wrong
and love can be so sad
Nothing can shake you
disturb you and make you
so lonely as love

So when somebody asks
you what it was
don't explain
about pain and bliss
But treated ill or well
you might just tell
them that it was
a feeling you would never have missed

lovely love

2007-12-26T00:30:00.000Z

Feel good song:

Nothing like those cosy nights with the person you love the most in the whole world. Almost as if you float away, become something else, somewhere else... and still you are so safe.

I’m on the edge for you
Losing my head for you
I’m in the red for you
Tonight

Play this song for me once more... while I miss someone... 500 miles away...

warning labels

2007-12-24T02:06:00.000Z

keep "out" of children?

so true

I just hate stupid people

2007-12-23T18:56:00.000Z

Here's Your Sign - Bill Engvall

"hold my sign, I don't want to lose it"

a poem

2007-12-23T18:51:00.000Z

Patrick Johnson read this for us at a Worship at Newbold. It stuck with me, and I've been thinking about its implications ever since. So often just saying "I am a Christian" can be difficult, although I know it shouldn't be. Is it because I think I know what people assume when i say 'Christian'? (that was a weird sentence, psychobable? hehe)
Here's a poem that incapsulates what it means to say 'I am a Christian' in a way that I never would have been able to do it.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I am saved"
I'm whispering "I was lost"
That is why I chose this way.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
And need someone to be my guide.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And pray for strength to carry on.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And cannot ever pay the debt.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are all too visible,
But God believes I'm worth it.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain
I have my share of heartaches
Which is why I speak His name.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I do not wish to judge.
I have no authority.
I only know I'm loved.

Carol S. Wimmer

the paradox of our time

2007-12-23T18:48:00.000Z

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings, but shorter tempers; wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints; we spend more, but have less; we buy more, but enjoy it less.

We have bigger houses and smaller families; more conveniences, but less time; we have more degrees, but less sense; more knowledge, but less judgment; more experts, but more problems; more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get angry too quickly, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too seldom, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We've learned how to make a living, but not a life; we've added years to life, not life to years.

We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet the new neighbor. We've conquered outer space, but not inner space; we've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul; we've split the atom, but not our prejudice.

We write more, but learn less; we plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait; we have higher incomes, but lower morals; we have more food, but less appeasement; we build more computers to hold more information to produce more copies than ever, but have less communication; we've become long on quantity, but short on quality.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion; tall men, and short character; steep profits, and shallow relationships. These are the times of world peace, but domestic warfare; more leisure, but less fun; more kinds of food, but less nutrition.

These are days of two incomes, but more divorce; of fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throw away morality, one-night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer to quiet to kill.

By Dr. Bob Moorehead

I thought this fitted in nice in all the Christmas stress... priorities?

Prevent HIV transmission frommother to child

2007-11-21T00:26:00.000Z

The ignorance surrounding HIV and AIDS is terrifying but very present.
Did you know that:
More than 25 million people have died of AIDS since 1981.
Africa has 12 million AIDS orphans.

AVERT - a UK based AIDS charity has a campaign in order to prevent the transmission of HIV from mother to child. Please take a second and read the following to increase your awareness about the issues surrounding AIDS and how you can help!

What is the problem?
380,000 children die of AIDS every year. If nothing is done then more than 1 million will die by 2010.

Can this be prevented?
Yes, it can. The vast majority of these child deaths can be prevented by stopping the transmission of HIV from mothers to their babies. If babies don’t become infected with HIV then they won’t develop AIDS and die.

What is the target of the Stop AIDS in Children campaign?
We are asking for urgent efforts to be made to prevent the transmission of HIV from mother to baby, so that by 2010, the number of children dying of AIDS will have been halved.

How can transmission of HIV from mother to baby be prevented?
Any baby born to a mother with HIV risks becoming infected during pregnancy, birth or breastfeeding. The chance of this happening can be massively reduced by giving HIV infected mothers and their babies anti-HIV drugs and, where appropriate, by feeding the baby using formula rather than breast milk.

These interventions are known as the Prevention of Mother-To-Child Transmission or “PMTCT”. Without these interventions, around one in three babies born to women with HIV will become infected with HIV themselves.

Company Policy

2007-11-05T15:13:00.000Z

Company Policy:
Effective from 2007

Dress Code
It is advised that you come to work dressed according to your salary. If we see you wearing prada shoes and carrying a Gucci bag, we assume you are doing well financially and therefore do not need a raise. If you dress poorly, you need to learn to manage your money better, so that you may buy nicer clothes, and therefore you do not need a raise. If you dress just right, you are right where you need to be and therefore you do not need a raise.

Sick Days
We will no longer accept a doctor's statement as proof of sickness. If you are able to go to the doctor, you are able to come to work.

Personal Days

Each employee will receive 104 personal days a year. They are called Saturday & Sunday.

Bereavement Leave
This is no excuse for missing work. There is nothing you can do for dead friends, relatives or co-workers. Every effort should be made to have non-employees attend to the arrangements. In rare cases where employee involvement is necessary, the funeral should be scheduled in the late afternoon. We will be glad to allow you to work through your lunch hour and subsequently leave one hour early.

Toilet Use
Entirely too much time is being spent in the toilet. There is now a strict three-minute time limit in the stalls. At the end of three minutes, an alarm will sound, the toilet paper roll will retract, the stall door will open, and a picture will be taken. After your second offence, your picture will be posted on the company bulletin board under the 'Chronic Offenders category'. Anyone caught smiling in the picture will be sanctioned under the company's mental health policy.

Lunch Break
Skinny people get 30 minutes for lunch, as they need to eat more, so that they can look healthy. Normal size people get 15 minutes for lunch to get a balanced meal to maintain their average figure. Chubby people get 5 minutes for lunch, because that's all the time needed to drink a Slim-Fast.

Thank you for your loyalty to the institution. We are here to provide a positive employment experience. Therefore, all questions, comments, concerns, complaints, frustrations, irritations, aggravations, insinuations, allegations, accusations, contemplations, consternation and input should be directed elsewhere

WISHLIST Merry Christmas

2007-11-04T17:19:00.000Z

With Christmas coming up I decided that it's time to make a wish list, since Christmas is all about the presents... ;)
So let's go for it
(click the images to get to a dealer)

Black Trapeze Dress from Whistles

CD David Garrett - Free

Perfume: Daisy by Marc Jacobs

Nikolaj og Julie DVD-box (click on picture to get cheapest dealer)

Mulberry Bayswater (Oak)

DreamMousse Eyecolor and Foundation from Maybelline

Max Factor Lash Perfection Mascara

Tights in mustard, cerise, clearblue, and lilac

Faux Fur Hat (Topshop)

Sheepskin Slippers

Board Games (Trivial Pursuit, Twister, Uno, Master Mind, Bingo, Ludo)

Body Butter from The Body Shop

Gift cards from Zara and HM

who would you pick?

2007-11-01T10:07:00.001Z

I added the "Compare People" application which in essence is a quite absurd idea, and this is what it asked me:

this is why I love this movie

2007-11-01T10:05:00.001Z

this weekend

2007-10-22T21:40:00.000+01:00

I just had the greatest weekend with Andreas. Saturday we picked apples from the little tree outside the building (I think we took all the apples left on the tree, that's how small it is) and made apple crumble pie from scratch and ate it with vanilla ice cream. YUMMY!
Sunday I made 3 curtains AND a table cloth. I have never been good at sowing and have actually only made to pillow covers before so this was a huge project for me. I took me about 8 hours and I am very proud.
While I was sowing Andreas put up a shelf, a mirror in the halway and shoeracket. It is getting cosier and cosier in his apartment.

Next time we go to IKEA I want to buy Christmas decorations :P

my favourite blog

2007-10-22T20:49:00.000+01:00

This blog is a blog that is inspiring in every way.
I read LOLITA every day (and sometimes I even read it 3-4 times a day) She writes about fashion, music, food (delicious recipes), beauty, make up, and different forms of design (interior).
Some of the fashion blgos of this time is all about the "trends" but Lolita manages to make a classical twist of most of the seasonal trends. It is a joy NOT to have to read about latex tights in a blog.

I have followed so many fashion blogs for the last 2 years, and she is definately the one worth mentioning.
Thank you Lolita!

And now she even has a competition.

Want to learn English?

2007-10-18T16:12:00.000+01:00

Fortunately I passed the English test when I started at newbold and therefore I never had to take any English classes.

Andreas says the guy reminds him of Kaj, the only German on campus.
It would be a great act for international night. =)

you can still be my boyfriend

2007-10-18T12:06:00.000+01:00

I made a quiz about myself on facebook and apparently it isn't very easy. Here is how Andreas did...

He thought it was a bit embarrasing so he did it again and got 100%. So there shouldn't be anything wrong with his memory. Maybe it's just the listening skills... ;)

If you think he must be a terrible boyfriend have a go yourself at the quiz: here (You will have to add the "quizzes application")

If you want to cheat and see how Andreas did click here.

why men are happier than women

2007-10-14T20:34:00.000+01:00

1. We keep our last name.
2. The garage is all ours.
3. Wedding plans take care of themselves.
4. Chocolate is just another snack.
5. We can be president.
6. We can wear a white T-shirt to a water park.
7. Car mechanics tell us the truth.
8. The world is our urinal.
9. We never have to drive to another gas station because this one's just too icky.
10. Same work, more pay.
11. Wrinkles add character.
12. Wedding dress - $5000; tux rental - $100.
13. People never stare at our chest when we're talking to them.
14. The occasional well-rendered belch is practically expected.
15. New shoes don't cut, blister, or mangle our feet.
16. One mood, ALL the time.
17. Phone conversations are over in 30 seconds flat.
18. We know stuff about tanks.
19. A five-day vacation requires only one suitcase.
20. We can open all our own jars.
21. We get extra credit for the slightest act of thoughtfulness.
22. If someone forgets to invite us, he or she can still be our friend.
23. Our underwear is $8.95 for a three-pack.
24. Everything on our face stays its original color.
25. Three pairs of shoes are more than enough.
26. We don't have to stop and think of which way to turn a nut on a bolt.
27. We almost never have strap problems in public.
28. We are unable to see wrinkles in our clothes.
29. The same hair style lasts for years, maybe decades.
30. We don't have to shave below our neck.
31. Our belly usually hides our big hips.
32. One wallet and one pair of shoes, one color, all seasons.
33. We can "do" our nails with a pocket-knife.
34. We have freedom of choice concerning growing a mustache.
35. We can do Christmas shopping for 25 relatives, on December 24, in 45 minutes.

My roommates fiance posted this on myspace. It made me smile. Some of it is not very Scandinavian, but it is becoming more and more like America even there. Yes it is stereotyping, but ironically there is small a factor of truth in it.
How predominant are gender differences in your country? Personally I think the problem is that we ARE different but our differnces should be seen as complementary not one being better than the other.
Are female characteristics such as nurturing, feelings, intuition etc. seen as weaker attributes?
Why does women in leading positions get less paid than men?
Why are women less likely to ask for more pay?
As women we should be careful so that we do not forget that we are in fact women and there is nothing wrong with that. That doesn't mean that we should be treated with less respect.

(A recommendation; NEVER read 'Why men don't listen and women can't read maps*. It made me furious and is not even partly based on scientific research although it claims to be so.)

For now, lets just laugh at our differences but keep the logic and mentality behind it in mind.

if you're feeling in love

2007-10-13T21:17:00.001+01:00

This song makes me happy in many ways. First of all the song in it self, the beat, the sound, the lyrics. Secondly I love Alicia. She is a beauty and her voice is absolutely amazing. (thank you for not trying to fit size 0 before making a music video, it is nice to see people with a "human" shape.) I remember when I first heard "Falling" and although this is something very different it makes me happy, and that is what I am looking for in music, that they manage to create an emotion.

So now I've put this song here so all of you can enjoy, at least I will while I am eating chocolate and listening to Andreas talking to his parents... or maybe I should make some brownies :)

Depression?

2007-10-12T11:03:00.000+01:00

PSALM 88
1 O LORD, the God who saves me,
day and night I cry out before you.
2 May my prayer come before you;
turn your ear to my cry.
3 For my soul is full of trouble
and my life draws near the grave.
4 I am counted among those who go down to the pit;
I am like a man without strength.
5 I am set apart with the dead,
like the slain who lie in the grave,
whom you remember no more,
who are cut off from your care.
6 You have put me in the lowest pit,
in the darkest depths.
7 Your wrath lies heavily upon me;
you have overwhelmed me with all your waves. Selah
8 You have taken from me my closest friends
and have made me repulsive to them.
I am confined and cannot escape;
9 my eyes are dim with grief.
I call to you, O LORD, every day;
I spread out my hands to you.
10 Do you show your wonders to the dead?
Do those who are dead rise up and praise you? Selah
11 Is your love declared in the grave,
your faithfulness in Destruction?
12 Are your wonders known in the place of darkness,
or your righteous deeds in the land of oblivion?
13 But I cry to you for help, O LORD;
in the morning my prayer comes before you.
14 Why, O LORD, do you reject me
and hide your face from me?
15 From my youth I have been afflicted
and close to death;
I have suffered your terrors and am in despair.
16 Your wrath has swept over me;
your terrors have destroyed me.
17 All day long they surround me like a flood;
they have completely engulfed me.
18 You have taken my companions and loved ones from me;
the darkness is my closest friend.

Coming to England I have got a feeling that sadness and vulnerability are not welcome in the church. It is almost as if God's people have to be "happy-clappy" all the time!
It is frustrating me!
As human beings we experience pain, relief, agony, love, frustration, anger, depression, happiness, and a huge spectrum of sometimes overwhelming emotions. In the Bible we learn how even those who were closest to God struggled with depression (psalm 88). So why can't we express these feelings in Church? The Church should be a safe place where people can meet the grace, love and embrace of a faithful God. Who cares if you wear a tie? Struggling with God and your faith is so important, and the Church should be the place where people can express these struggles and be met with understanding.
I almost want to start something called "depressed-Church" where doubt, anger, sadness and tears can be released and where you won't be asked if "God has been good to you?" and are expected to clap your hands and laugh. Surely God is worthy of praise, but He is also worthy of honesty. He knows what you are struggling with anyway so share it with Him, communicate! Express your confusion of emotions to God!

Who created emotions?
Who is faithful?
Who is all knowing?
Who is always present?

Psalm 62
1My soul finds rest in God alone;
my salvation comes from him.
2 He alone is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.

a last note... The book of Psalms in the Bible were the "Hymn-book" in the time of Jesus. Do we have anything like psalm 88 in todays repetoire? Shouldn't we?

Where is home?

2007-10-04T09:56:00.000+01:00

My parents have now moved to Denmark. All of a sudden I feel like I don't have a "home" anymore. I have most of "my" things here at Newbold, but our family is at this moment living in Sweden, England and Denmark. So where is home?

Is it here?

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I do miss my family right now...

Listening

2007-10-04T09:17:00.000+01:00

When I ask you to listen to me and you start giving advice, you have not done what I asked.

When I ask you to listen to me and you begin to tell my why I should feel that way you are tramping on my feelings.

When I ask you to listen to me and you feel you have to do something to solve my problem you have failed me, strange as that may seem.

Listen! All I asked was that you listen - not talk or do. Just hear me.

Advice is cheap. A quarter will get you both Dear Abby and Billy Graham in the same newspaper.

And I can do for myself. I'm not helpless. Maybe discouraged and faltering but not helpless.

When you do something for me that I can do for myself, you contribute to my fear and inadequacy.

But when you accept as a simple fact that I do feel what I feel, no matter how irrational, then I can quit trying to convince you and can get about the business of understanding what's behind this irrational feeling.

And when that's clear, the answers are obvious and I don't need advice. Irrational feelings make sense when we understand what's behind them.

Perhaps that's why prayer works sometimes for some people - because God is mute and He/She doesn't give advice or try to fix things.

So please listen and just hear me. And if you want to talk, wait a minute for your turn and I'll listen to you.

Beyond Sympathy by Janice Harris Lord

a word of advice

2007-10-01T11:59:00.000+01:00

Do not buy this toothbrush: Colgate 360*!

It is absolutely horrible. There is plastic in the middle which rubs against your teeth and makes a whisteling sound. I got chills down my back from using this.

...and remember to floss!

demotivators

2007-09-29T12:33:00.001+01:00

Have a nice day...

Pictures from www.despair.com

cravings... I hate that word

2007-09-20T16:49:00.001+01:00

but I really want a bag of these right now...

mmmm...

I am handling it.

I stole a bag of Turkisk Peber!
I am saved

a walking tragedy

2007-09-10T23:06:00.000+01:00

I don't even know what to say about this, except it's a really bad performance and a really sad moment.

I guess I was never a Britney fan, but her strength was always performance and especially her dancing, and this is not even close to the performer she used to be. Maybe she should have waited a bit longer with her come back. Settle a few more things in her life before... I was going to write get more public, but I get she will always be bothered with paparazzi no matter if she has a new release coming up or not.
Who wants to be a celebrity?

Pablo Francisco

2007-09-10T21:47:00.000+01:00

My sister (Heidi) just won two tickets to go see Pablo Francisco this Friday on myspace.com (the Swedish server!) YEAY!

I just saw this clip for the first time this Friday! Markus (who has been here a week now and went to the same school at us back in Sweden) showed these inspiring clips to me! Thank you Markus, you've taught me so much more about Mexicans(next clip).

HAHA![nåååååwrtiiiii]!

legs like that? yes please

2007-09-10T21:42:00.000+01:00

Jealous? YES, I'm jealous! I can't even walk in shoes like that. I'd feel handicapped!

picture taken from www.thesartorialist.com

I'm fluent in Sarcasm

2007-08-28T16:17:00.000+01:00

Apparently sarcasm is definedas: "A form of wit that is marked by the use of sarcastic language and is intended to make its victim the butt of contempt or ridicule." and "bitter humor designed to wound."

Oh but it can be somuch fun!

On facbook there's a group called: I'm fluent in Sarcasm... I'mnot sure weither I should join it or not! But I'm guessing that I'll fit in perfectly after reading those definitions! ;)